I was happy with the decision. The biggest challenge was that it changed how I interacted with people. I spent the first year not knowing how to hang out with my friends back home in RI. I didn't go home as much as I could have.
I worked two jobs, so I was never bored. And I learned how to crochet, so I kept my hands busy while I was home. My nutrition was still a challenge. I ate what I liked. I ate what fit into my time schedule. Taco Bell, Wendy's, Dunkin Donuts were all located on the road I took to my second job so they supplied dinner and midnight snacks. When the office had snacks I would eat some, and bring some back to my desk. I would wrap the food in paper towels, hide it under the papers I was carrying, so no one really knew how much I was eating.
Me in 2005:
In 2005 I decided that life was unfair and the only thing I could really control was my eating. So I stopped eating the 'junk'. I cut out carbs. I cut out sugar. Concentrated on fruits, vegetables, 'healthy' snacks, sugar free desserts. Restricting my diet gave me a sense of control. The weight started to come off. I didn't really miss what I wasn't eating, or at least that's what I told myself. I was making healthier choices. I have learned that I still had a long way to go.
Over the next few years I kept my 'diet' under control. I continued to lose weight. I did not exercise other than the occasional walk with family or through the woods. I felt ok. I felt like I had control over what I looked like. More changes came over the next few years: another move, a new job. Another big life change - my first A-HA! moment - came at the beginning of 2009. That's when I learned about nutritional eating and the benefits of exercise.
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